I seem to be having really bad luck with computers recently!
I’ve been feeling so good about being all ready to get my blog posts done in advance tomorrow and today was going to be the last day I was writing them on the day they go up and then I get an error message when I’m saving my images on photoshop! According to Adobe my scratch disks are corrupted, or possibly full, it can’t make up its mind at the moment. I’ve been having the scratch disc full message pop up for a week or so because it kept reverting back to the default even when I changed the drive it’s supposed to save and install to and it appears that it’s so full now that even opening photoshop is too much so I can’t even change the scratch drive destination.
Anyway, I’ve been searching the internet for a solution and it seems I may need to get a new hard drive, which is annoying as it seems the one that’s broken is the one that’s only been put in there last November. I feel a bit like hitting my head on the wall at the moment!
I will spend tomorrow trying to figure it out and I’m hoping it’s not a new hard drive as my computer was only just under guarantee last time it got fixed, now it’s definitely out of it. Any tech people out there have any ideas? I’m still a bit fuzzy with antibiotics and throat medicine so I could be missing something totally obvious! I think the next thing I’ll try is uninstall and reinstalling it but I’m not hopeful that won’t give me the same message if it’s corrupted rather than full.
Basically, I will be putting posts up but all the photos I had taken to get ahead of myself may not be useable. I’m going to have to try and hijack my parents desktop and see if I can use that maybe. Either that or it’s back to the good old iPad and I’m taking photos for ten posts all over again and have to try and make things look unused!
This is possibly a pointless post that will be going down tomorrow but I thought there might be a tiny chance someone else has had a similar problem. I’ll shut up now!
I did originally plan to do an update every three months but my last one was in March so you can see how well that went! I can’t believe how quickly 2018 has gone, so much seems to have happened but in so little time. Having got a notification saying I’ve just had my 4 year anniversary I thought I’d look back at the goals I set way back in January and see how I’m doing.
I tend to see goals as something to aim for, but still keep them flexible. I’ve found that if I’m too rigid with these things it’s easy to get discouraged and give up. Things change, life gets in the way, making realistic goals helps me to stick to them and I love that feeling when you achieve something. It’s like that feeling of crossing off things on a list. I think I just like lists in general.
For me goals are something to aim for but I tend to find that keeping them flexible is the best. Things in life change all the time so why not goals too? Sometimes it’s good to move the goalposts and give yourself a bit of extra time, as long as it’s not something that would have a negative impact on yourself or others, and the opposite can help too. I often find I work best to a deadline which has meant late nights finishing coursework but making little goals and deadlines in life for myself seems to have a similar effect.
It’s a bit odd posting this as I’m not sure if there will actually be any difference on my blog as, for once, I was actually organised and have a few posts scheduled. But yesterday my Grandpa died, it hasn’t really sunk in yet so no idea how I’m going to react when it does and I might go quiet online for a bit. It’s odd, I know I’ve been lucky in that no one close to me has died since I was five or six and I was too young to really remember that too much so the next few weeks will be taking it as it comes probably.
Hopefully I’ll be back blogging next week and there won’t be any difference, I actually really miss posting when I miss a post or week or whatever and I may have ended up buying more recently, not the best way of coping but I do have a lot of things to post about!
Anyway, this was just a quick post, I’ll stop before I ramble on too much. I started this with a plan of having this really good post but it’s just another short update for why I might not be psoting. I seem to be doing this a lot recently.
It’s been a while since I wrote anything M.E. related but after a trip to relatives I thought this would be a good time. This question, along with ‘do you go out much?’ and ‘do you have any friends you go out with?’ are innocent enough questions, at least in this case they were, but they’re some of those that are so hard to answer when you’ve got a chronic illness. It doesn’t help that elderly relatives can forget they’ve asked so I’ve been asked repeatedly on the same day which doesn’t exactly help to just brush it off.
I guess that’s the thing, it’s harder to brush these off when you don’t actually so much. In everyday life I tend to think I’ve achieved quite a bit if I’ve managed to get my blog posts up for the week, gone for walks, done some volunteering and maybe get some jewellery making done. Looking at each day individually most of the time is spent what would probably be classed as ‘not doing much’ which translates to resting in chronic illness terms. It’s harder to feel like you’re acheiving something when you look at it like that and easy to forget how much improvement there has been over the past few years, even the last year or six months.
Hey guys, I thought I’d do a bit of an update as posts may be a bit off schedule the next couple of weeks. Two weeks ago I had an operation to remove a big cyst and so these past two weeks posts have been scheduled and I hoped to be better by now so I could do my posts like I was before. Sorry if I’ve taken a while to reply to comments and I know I am way behind on reading blog posts but my concentration is getting better again. I think it’s more my ME knock on effect rather than the operation that’s getting in the way now as I was feeling so much better a couple of days after the operation than I have for years so hopefully this means I’ll actually have more energy and be able to spend more time on the blog. I might even get back to the five posts a week and more of a schedule for the different types of posts with five a week like I did the beginning of last year. That’s the goal anyway.
On the plus side I’ve had to relax and not do anything much and the weather has been nice so I have been catching up on my reading and the list of to read books outside. Though I highly doubt I’ll actually manage a book a week and have read 52 by the end of the year, maybe I should stop setting it as a goal but I do want o read more and it’s one way of doing that for me.
It has also taught me that I can actually do more scheduled posts, I’m just never organised to do this and forget after a few weeks but I’ll try to get into the habit more. I always used to worry that if I did them too far in advance they’d get out of date or I’d have new things arrive and mess the schedules up.
Also I do have some ideas for more health related posts but not sure how many people would be interested in them. I just is I’ve answered questions in the past about geberal anaesthetic and ME so might post about that as I’ve had a couple of experiences that were very different and I know before the surgery I was searching for information on the internet about things I’d need to take and remember so might do posts on that. I don’t know. Would any of you guys enjoy interested in those sorts of posts? I feel like I haven’t done many ME and health related posts recently.
Anyway, this isn’t much of a post but I wanted to do a bit of an update and explain why if I don’t post for a bit. Hope you’re all well and that the weather’s good wherever you are. Our early summer seems to have disappeared again here in the UK.
This time of year I always get that Spring Clean, time to declutter everything, feeling and this year I finally decided that it was time to admit that my jewellery and clothes were in dire need or a sort out. Quite a few of my clothes haven’t fitted me that well for the past year, since a fun side effect of the medication I’m on made me gain quite a bit of weight around my middle, and oddly my feet too, and changed my body shape. It’s a bit like learning how to dress myself and what suits me all over again, but that’s a topic for another post.
Anyway, I decided that I would try everything I own on and anything that doesn’t fit me but is still either new (I did a bit of an overhaul a week before I started the mads so haven’t worn some of it) or that I still loved got put in bags and is now stored under the bed in the spare room. It certainly feels better having a wardrobe full of clothes I can actually fit into rather than one bulging at the seems because it has two sizes of everything!
My jewellery was mainly a case of having things I’ve loved for years but not worn them as they aren’t the style I go for any more, though I forgot to photograph what I got rid of annoyingly. Makeup will probably become a few posts, I always love reading and watching decluttering things other people do so they’ll go up when I finish that.
I started the Low-GL (Glycaemic Load) diet eight weeks ago, there’s a post with a bit more about it here if you want more information on what it actually is. I have to say that when I hear the word diet I automatically think of not being able to eat much, feeling hungry or avoiding carbs but I have not found that I missed anything in this diet.
The main idea is to have the right proportions of a more carb heavy food, protein and a lot of low carb veg so it turns the carb into a more slow release sugar rather than having the peaks and lows that I was having before.
I started this as it’s a bit of a different version of the Low-GI (Glycaemic Index) diet that was recommended by an ME specialist a couple of years ago. I tried Low GI and I just couldn’t work it out so ended up giving up as it didn’t seem to work but it may be more to do with me failing to get it right. With my ME one of the symptoms I have is post prandial hypoglycaemia, though I don’t have diabetes my blood sugar drops low a few hours after eating so this diet was recommended to even that out.
For ages I would make new year’s resolutions but there are only so many times you can have learn to drive on there but kit be able to achieve it purely because of health reasons before it gets a bit demoralising.
Instead I have decided to make goals, I did his last year and I failed most due to a mix of health, mediation side effects or other family member’s health issues that were more important to think about but since having ME I have definitely learnt that goals should be flexible as being to rigid with them leads to disappointment and it’s just not how chronic illnesses work, in my experience anyway. Continue reading
I think one of my first posts was about computer games and I haven’t really done much about them since. I’m not sure how well they fit into my blog but as computers and technology in general is something I love writing about and games are a great escape they’ll stay in here now and then. I have to say that I am one of those people who sees games, wants them, buys them on Steam and then plays them for a few hours and they get forgotten. There are various reasons for that but one of the big ones is my ME and the energy it takes to actually concentrate and play. Add in the fact that I don’t really have any friends who play computer games, actually not many friends in general due to being housebound most of the time anyway, and that some of my favourites that have been started are ones that my computer can’t handle and my list of games I can play becomes limited.
I wish I could play more computer games, I have more than enough time for it even with starting the business, blogging and volunteering for the website I do which is probably the opposite of most people. I like how you can escape into another world, whether the game is remotely realistic or not, even the most pixelated and outdated games can be a great escape. I kind of wish I could find a good Dizzy version (the 80s game with the egg) as I loved the one I had even if I did get stuck at the same place for so long. I did find a version of the old Lion King, Aladdin and Jungle Book games we had that took like ten floppy discs each back in the day. I think it’s the nostalgia in those cases, they’re games I played when I was growing up before I got ill so it doesn’t matter how bad they might be they’ll always be amazing to me.